Here I Go Again...
today midnight... she told me that she wanna call-off this relationship... due to her feeling wasn't right for her... what can i link it back to her all she just doesn't want to give me a chance and i din't done anything wrong haha... of course i did cry... niang right... i put in, give in and of course i do love her but ended up my downfall of the waterfall come again... why must i ended up in such ending ? haha... i din't sleep, just go run and run and run... done so much is for who ?
she told me is not bout me is herself and telling me feeling wasn't right for her ? then what is right for her ? ya maybe i'm sucked in this... pathetic right... right now i don't know what should i do... maybe go for running, football section to make myself tired or exhausted and can't make my mind think so much haah... i think this is a best solution bah... when i down haha... feeling not right... what is right for me ? haha... haha... haha... i feel like quitting and going insane, think back am i very nice to be dumped ? haha... i don't know why i'm sad i still can laugh haha... i don't know... can anyone tell me what's happening ? am i that not good enough ? am i that suck ? can anyone tell me ? ya i do love her of course i do... but why ? is it my life won't be that easy for me haha... maybe my life is just full of question marks...
oh ya... this year going to 21 what should i going to do ? schedule myself running and football section all the way the entirely day on my birthday haha... maybe i can try it... haha.. i very stupid right why making myself so miserable but so how nobody know how i feel so don't judge my behavior for that ya... haha... or maybe on my 21 birthday i go J.B and missing haha... kidding... ok lar... ya...
just now my father ask me where did i go this entire night... i do reply... oh nothing just can't sleep lor so i go for a walk from what time to now lor... i do think he know what happen bah... ya i can't sleep maybe for this few days ? don't know... haha...
laugh if you people out there think i'm a loser... or when you all realise how i feel right now maybe there will changes of view from you all... haha...
haha... ok i think i'm already so pathetic already so i should end here and go for football section already takecare everyone...
this sentence is for her lar... ok... i will wait for you to accept me again while you feel the time is right for you... ya maybe you're right... but all i want to said is i will wait in no matter what happen... maybe next time you won't choose me again maybe Sean or your childhood Shawn nobody knows... :) tomorrow school start le don't stress up yourself lor takecare and be careful of your health, while you need someone to talk to you can find me but you got your childhood friend maybe no need me bah :) so just do take very good care lor can prevent of allergies then prevent lor... :) takecare...
