Memories
Saturday, January 31, 2009
CNY should be happy but i don't
normally CNY should be a happy and making people tremendously busy with new stuff, getting lots of ang bao and etc. but this year just like no meaning to me anymore... or maybe for the next fore come years of CNY isn't have any meaning for me beside gathering or chill out with friends just like a normal day.
why do i say so is.. my father side is one F****** irritating side in the world if anyone wanted to compare with me with it. just because of 2 people which i F****** don't like it and i don't want to see them in my sight. one which is have a bloody smelly poisonous mouth and one is which make my grandma fall and now needed a walking stick to support onto.
so is this a happy gathering for me every year ? everytime i saw others family is so like unite jokes around F around in such a way that will really won't put into their heart.
but at least i feel better on my mother side of relatives talk and joke like nobody business but only for jus once a year and that a full stop of it pathetic right... that why people say Good things won't last long.
learning is one step, understanding is another step.
give in is one step, accepting is another.
steps will be in front of us no matter what obstacles occur,
if we don't face our own reality and stop on the spot.
answer won't be given, truth won't be unveil.
Love Life; {4:09:00 PM}
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